Despite all the good things with the film and SC, i've been feeling a bit off... like confidence etc... so, i'm thinking about how to shift that energy, how to galvanize around my goals, and get clearer about that which i want to create...
i have to admit i feel a little ansty writing w/out a project in mind... i don't feel that same way with photography, partly because my shooting time isn't so concentrated... and i think the thinking of shots is just as interesting as what ends up recorded on film...
yesterday, i was having a bunch of film ideas... which kinda scared me... cause film tends to make me tired, i tend not to want to do too much of it... not for any good reason, other than it requires me to leave the house and talk to people... but that should be a good reason... like, hey it requies me to leave the house and talk to people... isn't that great! but it ends up feeling like cold broccoli... you know it's good for you, but it doesn't feel like something you want to eat... but this is all really bullshit... cause when i'm in the process, in the interview, in the edit... i enjoy it... it's just all the setup prior, the asking and the negotiating... but that's w/ anything...
i'll journal now... return w/ some clarity tomorrow....
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