Day 83

i set a really clear intention, however i don't remember what it was... so now it's hard to look at the day in relation to that.... i think it was about feeling like enough, remembering that all the things external are just that... external, everything is a reflection of how you feel about yourself or whatever... so, it was something about attracting money, community, and like-minded members of the opposite sex or something like that... either way, what i did see was men... and i'm not sure if there was more attention or just me being more aware of the attention... hard to say exactly... but kind of this quiet affirmation of my "flyness" even my t-shirt and converse... despite my own desire to dress more feminine...

also, listening to hayhouse radio the last couple of days... thinking about how to flip this desire for a relationship that's come on really strong in the last couple of days... so, back to thinking about real self-care... how to nurture myself so i don't feel i NEED this or that from others... so, Michael Neil has this idea... he said figure out what you want in partner, and then approach a certain number of days from the standpoint of how do i give this or that quality or need to myself... so, not to keep piling other things on this 100 day challenge, but i do want to add self-care as well...

should that be a concern? in the last third of this challenge... i added photography, a TV fast, and a writing practice... but this one goes right along with that as well...